Sunday, October 24, 2004
Its been a long time since i blog...let mi see...its there a gap of 2 months..?Gosh..
A whole lot of things has since happened in the midst of my absence here...
I have just finished my exams last fri..man,finali the ordeal is over...its was a horror to mi..
First Day:Business Statistics-the previous day b4 i was hurriedly rushing thru all the notes n oso the textbk...i nearly reali went crazy over forcing so many formulae n theories into my head within such a short time...this was the second time tat i feel this way...im not sure whether its "stress" or wadever thingy tats happening to mi...the first time was when i was abt to receive my o's results...Come on,i wondered y am i working so xtra hard for this exam as compared to my o level...Well,the bstats exam was horrible...i blanked out on all the steps on a 9 marks qn...its not onli tat ok...i could not bear to explain any further...
First Day(after the energy-consuming bstats exam):MIcroEconomics-one's down...3 more to go..but tml one reali makes mi panic...mind u its ECONS...i began to hate it when i attend the 1st 3 months in tpjc...i simply take up this subject as trash at tat time and thus nv learn anything there...microecons is damn content-heavy and killing mi even more mercilessly than bstats!Tat nite was my third encounter with the so-called "burnout"...following explanation of this term will be revealed in the later part when i was studying my cip...
Second Day:The econs paper stabbed my heart straight without any warning...and after looking at my frens' confident faces,i realised how deep the stab was jus now...my wounds heal jus a little when i got some rest at hm b4 i started cip revision...cip stands for computer and information processing and not tat "cip" programme tat we did during sec days for ur further information...
Yup thats when i came across the term "burnout"...It means a state of fatigue or frustration brought about by overwork;often born from good intentions such as working hard to try to reach goals that for one reason or another,become unrealistic...
What do u guys think..?
Third Day:I was stunned when i opened the cip exam qn booklet...i could feel my "hard-earned" notes in my mind slowly getting eaten away by my feelings at tat point of time...to save the remaining of the memories left in my mind,i hurriedly scribbled away wat i can think of...Thats the end of it...haiz...
Fourth Day:After a nite of rest...i felt rather fresh as my mind's all clear of those remnants left by the previous papers...i started out doing the past yrs exam papers of accounting...Oops,i have forgotten to update u guys of my accounting so-called "background" in these 3 months or so...I had no basic accounting background in my sec education...and so i arrive in my course without any slightest idea of it...Here comes my first common test and i flanked it,scoring 44/100 and also the only one tat failed in my class...I hate to admit tat i actuali cried after much negative thoughts...My second test pulled my marks up slightly higher..one main reason was tat it was a multiple-choice paper...but i reali bucked myself up after tat failure...so the day b4 accounting exam i was veri stressed out and worried...i could hear occasional ringing of my lecturer's wakeup call:"I think those that did not do very well should work even harder...if u were to fail the overall exam...then i think u may have to consider switching courses..."
Its frightening,isn't it?Guess those words urged mi to study well for this paper...and i must make sure i understand everything thats in it...as a result i repeatedly rang up my friends for help...glad that they r there for mi when i need help...just wana say "thanx to eileen and sixuan!"
Fifth Day(also the last day):I duno y i felt much more relax than the other days but this feeling was definitely great..at least it less tense and afterall,tat shld be the right way to feel b4 u start ur paper...Though i knew it was kinda impossible to do well for this paper but i hope i can get at least a C grade(im crossing my fingers =P)
Wow!So tiring after making such a long entry for my blog...So many tings to write still...haha...hope u guys dun get bored!(well if its reali boring den hmm..maybe jus say tat in ur mind k...hee)I have been playing countless times of This Love by maroon5 during this long...entry...love this song!!Reminds mi of Benjamin Eio too...sob...
Finali...I gotta apologise for writing such a long blog...How gd if my essays can be so long...Today's abt all studies...Humph...BORED
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