Wednesday, May 11, 2005
I felt so terrible my thoughts are driving me crazy...i kept thinking of consequences you know...i felt really lost this time round...it's really horrible and i duno what u feeling even though u assured me umpteen times...it's not that i dun believe but...i felt as though i'm losing my senses to think about other things except this...and u know my background...u know what's going to happen if the worst is here...i really duno what to do or say...i know i could only wait but this waiting is torturing me like hell...i'm like that...call me a coward or whatever and i'm a girl...i got to play 2 characters when i'm alone or with my mum and sis around...one is a normal me and the other a lost one in a huge jungle...i know in the jungle there is someone always there but maybe i'm still blind to see that someone...feeling completely lost makes me blind gradually you know...i feel the urge to dial a number that's unfamiliar but i shiver as i tried dialling...what should i ask?how should i go about starting to ask them questions?thanks for the reassurance...i know u tried your best to comfort me...i just hope i can lessen your worries and i'm trying for myself too...really really hope u dun feel irritated or annoyed =(
Praying really really hard here...i hope everything's going to be fine...i really prayed hard...if not i seriously have no solution in my mind...
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